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Some just have more than others. In my life, I don’t have many moment’s where I wish I could go back and re write them. I’m happy with the way I am now, and going back and changing it would make me a different person, and I wouldn’t want that.

there are only 3 cases in witch I could ever go back and change.

1. is just staying 1 more minute with my dog that night he was attacked by our guard dog.. if I could of just been there, maybe he still would be here with me, helping me out when I felt down.

2. that night I told this girl I really liked her, and practicably ruined my whole relationship with her. it’s never been the same since then, and I won’t lie, I feel terrible about it, and I really do miss her.

3. not kissing her. Different girl, different time, but it was that moment you had with a girl that you knew was special. where you looked at her, just smiling like an idiot, and you knew that you should of just taken it… and I refused, and let it go. that night was the last night we ever hung out.. if I could of just kissed her that night… maybe it would of changed something.

I guess it’s sort of annoying, hearing about the things I regret, (considering 2 of them were about a girl.) I bet you’re wondering why does any of it matter?

because I miss them, I miss those times where I had someone I looked forward to seeing every day, where I had an exciting part of my day where I knew someone was expecting me… 

I don’t have those anymore.

I feel pretty alone right now.

it’s kind of depressing, 

but at the same time, I’m not the kind of person to be depressed. I find a reason to smile every day, to push forward and not give up, because I’ve always got that hope that today, is always going to be my day.

maybe I’ll have that person again,

someone I can talk to again, and just not worry about the rest of the universe.

oh yeah,

I’m back btw.

hi :F

Everyone says that people suck, but does anyone actually have a good reason to?

“they’re stupid”
“They’re annoying”
“They think they’re better than me”

fucking face it people, everyone is like that, EVERYONE YOU WILL EVER MEET IN YOUR LIFE, IS EXACTLY LIKE THAT.

People are stupid.
People are annoying.
And someone will always think they are better than you. 

deal with it,

Move on with your life.

but why do I not like people?

why do I think that people suck?

Because there is no one worth the effort to do anything anymore. 

Do you have any idea how much I do for people?

and I don’t do it because I expect something in return,

I do it because I care about others,

I do it because I fucking want to help, 

I do it because I enjoy helping people.

but fucking why?

why the fuck do i keep doing that?

no one is EVER fucking worth it.

no one ever will be.

I’ve done so much for so many fucking people

and no one is ever going to appreciate it.

friends are no where near the exception.

friends will abuse and manipulate you. 

and when you need they’re help, 

when you’re sick,

or when you need them,

almost none of them would be there for me.

don’t fucking tell me that you will,

it’s fucking bull shit.

I’ve known people who say they will be there,

they’ll do anything,

the they love me,

FUCKING BULL SHIT.

you’re just another bull shit liar who just cares about yourself.

when I said I would do something,

I always lived of to my promises,

so where the fuck are yours?

ass holes.

why do you have to make everything a Fandom?

like seriously, it’s stupid.

how the hell is there an Avengers Fandom?

or a Spider-man Fandom?

WTF is that even suppose to mean?

I thought people who liked marvel were just called nerds and geeks.

I think that’s a pretty respectable title.

but no, just cause I like Spider-man, doesn’t mean I’m part of the “fandom” 

I’m just a fan.

who actually reads comic books.

don’t associate yourselves with me.

it turns out I was wrong.

I guess I give people to much credit where it’s due,

you were exactly like everyone else.

only thinking about yourself,

not thinking about how what you do will effect other people,

and it took me a long time to finally see that.

you can say you loved me, 

that much I’ll believe,

but to be committed?

to trust you?

i don’t think I could ever do that.

we don’t talk anymore, 

and I’m sorry,

but I stopped caring,

because it just wasn’t worth caring about anymore.

besides, you’ve got more important people in your life now,

I’m just another story for you to tell people,

and that’s fine with me.

Maybe the rumors were right,

how people said I was a jerk,

and how I was a monster for doing what I supposedly did.

some of it is true, 

I know I wasn’t fair,

I know I didn’t make any sense,

I know I was confusing,

I know I did things wrong,

and people will never forget it.

but does anyone remember some of the good stuff I did?

did anyone recall the times I was there?

the times I talked it out?

the times I sacrificed so much? 

no, of course you don’t.

no one ever does.

I’ll end up as a 5 minute conversation recapping all the horrible things I did.

but I don’t care anymore. 

I’m to numb, and to busy to care about that stuff…

I hope you’re happy,

I hope you’re still smiling.

try to move on,

because there’s nothing left here for you.

walk along with the rest,

I’m not going to catch up.

home-of-hip-hop:

It’s funny how the scrapped the spiderman’s and started again. A hole movie about Wolverine, that’s gonna be sick as fuck. What the fuck is Ant-Man? aha. 

^ movie fans… not worth the arguments.

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starsinthegutter:

did-you-kno:

Lost Generation.

I’m a part of Lost Generation

and I refuse to believe that

I can change the world

I realize this may be a shock but

“Happiness comes from within”

is a lie, and

“Money will make me happy”

So in thirty years I’ll tell my children

They are not the most important thing in my life

My employer will know that

I have my priority straight because

Work

Is more important than

Family

I tell you this

Once upon a time

Families stay together

But this will not be true in my era

This is a quick fix society

Experts tell me

Thirty years from now I will be celebrating the 10th anniversary of my divorce

I do not concede that

I will live in a country of my own making

In the future

Environmental destruction will be the norm

No longer can it be said that

My peers and I care about this earth

It will be evident that

My generation is apathetic and lethargic

It is foolish to presume that

There is hope

And all of this will come true unless we reverse it.

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that is so fucking cool.

I love that

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It was pretty terrible.

I don’t remember much, cause I don’t write it down.

I always tell myself to start documenting it,

but I’m to lazy and to unorganized to keep one.

anyway, what I do remember from the dream was pretty awesome.

I dreamed that I could fly, and usually, people say that’s clitche, but idc, I’ve always wanted to fly.

but as I went on dreaming, i ended up losing that ability, it was pretty sad.

anyway, that wasn’t the hightlight of it.

There was this girl,

yes, this girl,

there’s always a girl.

and I know her in real life,

and I really don’t know why,

but I met up with her like I usually do,

and something just sort of clicked…

I’m don’t remember what happened after that,

I don’t think it really matters,

because I felt pretty happy.

it almost felt real,

it was really weird.

and she was just amazing… like she usually is in real life.

but then I woke up…

and I was really sad.

for a second I thought it was real,

but it wasn’t.

dreams suck.

so I threw my pillow at the wall.

witch caused my lamp to fall over.

but what ever.

the lamp deserved it.

ironicly, I got onto facebook,

and the first thing I saw was a status of her with her boyfreind…

i forgot to mention that,

she has one.

bleh. 

girls are a drag.