Some just have more than others. In my life, I don’t have many moment’s where I wish I could go back and re write them. I’m happy with the way I am now, and going back and changing it would make me a different person, and I wouldn’t want that.
there are only 3 cases in witch I could ever go back and change.
1. is just staying 1 more minute with my dog that night he was attacked by our guard dog.. if I could of just been there, maybe he still would be here with me, helping me out when I felt down.
2. that night I told this girl I really liked her, and practicably ruined my whole relationship with her. it’s never been the same since then, and I won’t lie, I feel terrible about it, and I really do miss her.
3. not kissing her. Different girl, different time, but it was that moment you had with a girl that you knew was special. where you looked at her, just smiling like an idiot, and you knew that you should of just taken it… and I refused, and let it go. that night was the last night we ever hung out.. if I could of just kissed her that night… maybe it would of changed something.
I guess it’s sort of annoying, hearing about the things I regret, (considering 2 of them were about a girl.) I bet you’re wondering why does any of it matter?
because I miss them, I miss those times where I had someone I looked forward to seeing every day, where I had an exciting part of my day where I knew someone was expecting me…
I don’t have those anymore.
I feel pretty alone right now.
it’s kind of depressing,
but at the same time, I’m not the kind of person to be depressed. I find a reason to smile every day, to push forward and not give up, because I’ve always got that hope that today, is always going to be my day.
maybe I’ll have that person again,
someone I can talk to again, and just not worry about the rest of the universe.
I’m back btw.